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It is very difficult to find my way to work today. (wicked lazy grin... hehehe) Holiday is over!!!! Back to reality... It was a pleasant and enjoying trip to Krabi. I snapped almost 700 interesting nature and scenic photos. I will share in my next post. Too many to upload now. I need to go to work. I discover many interesting food and things. It is not difficult to blend as everywhere I goes people mistaken me as 'Thai Girl'. Many of them deliberately talk to me in Thai language. Can't blame them. I do admit I look like one of them though! My adventure include Hot Spring, emerald pool, tiger cave, big tree jungle trail,4 islands hoping with speed boat, Shell Cemetary, Krabi Town with motorbike, strolling down the Aunang Beach and many more. It was packed with exciting activities. Manage to spare for few trips to massage parlour. It was a good feeling. I discover interesting experience on having street food. A trip to hunt for the best Tom Yum Khoong and sticky rice. Best th

Ketupat rendang ketupat rendang and rendang again... more cookies cookies and curry mee and more rendang. OMG!!! I was spoiled with lots of food this Raya.3 days my itenaries is just eat and eat and eat again..... owwwwhh!!! I stuff myself like a stuff turkey during christmas! Tones of junk food and other raya goodies brought back home. I was thinking to distribute it away but greedy side of me just want to keep it all to myself and stuff all in my stomach.... huwaahahahahahaha (wicked witch style of laughing) OMG! I am very spoiled!!! I lost 3kg during 30 days of fasting months....I believe it just water retention! By looking at my junk food stocks, No big deal and I may end up increase to another 6kg within a week...kekekekeke Yeah! still gigle like small kid over the overweight... actually .... I am very worried..... 2 more days to go... then I will be flying off for my R&R trip wakakakaka... I hope my travel this time will full of adventure and discover more things. Owh!!!! can

Wow! nice Wednesday morning traffic. If I know the road going to be this smooth ,I should have stop at that Petronas station to reload my smart tag. The balance is running low. I can't even enter KLCC with my smart tag. I guess they only accept RM30 and above. hahaha.. Look like everybody is back to their respective hometown. I am imagining everybody busy wrapping the 'ketupat' and 'bakar' the 'lemang'. I miss those days! I don't mean I miss me doing all those things. Hehehehe... me love to eat and being bossy around only kekeke... I am not one person who will get excited with baking the cookies or something. I like to see all those pretty cookies and listen to their fantastic name but not so very keen in eating those thing. Feeling a bit lazy to drive north on Friday morning at 3.30am but I oblige to do so. Today that fella aka my pot rice is flying out from Yangon to KL. Then tomorrow will be a hectic day for me. Hopefully don't have to be at work

On 30th Aug 2010, I woke up with a half dead body. I was purging and my head feel heavy and my body was aching. I was unwell since the past few weeks and that morning was the worst. I drove to work with half eyes open and manage to reach Citibank Tower safely unhurt. When I reach office , locked my room door and continue sleeping on the carpet , dirty or not dirty I don't give a damn anymore. All I care my head feel very heavy and body feeling so weak. Start 8.30am, I am trying my best to maintain strong in front of everybody. Yeah! again try to be wonder woman! By 1.00pm, again I locked myself in my room and lie down flat on the floor. Make thing worst, I was fasting and forgot to bring my jacket. It was so cold and my sickness still there and getting worsen. I keep telling myself , I need to be strong and tomorrow is a holiday, I can rest and rest and rest. I was waiting for 5.30pm to drive back home. Guess where am I on eve of Independence Day??? This is the history of my life f

I received a call yesterday afternoon for job interview in Kepong. However, since I am one psycho emotional lady and he started the conversation with Miss Ismail instead of acknowledging my given name, I feel a bit offended. Thats my dad's name for goodness sake! Think first before make any calls. He sounded like Malaysian Chinese , can't he tell from the name and have a bit of education to address people name properly rather than just call me right away without thinking? Hahaha.. actually thats not the real reason I am deciding to pass the interview, the main reason after investigate and ask around about the company, I find it is wise for me to pass. Not worth it to give my best shot and I sense another crappy job! Yeah! maybe i am being sceptical but yet my heart is telling me not try. I am believing my heart more than anything now. I believe more will come soon. I just need to select wisely so I won't get trap anymore. Although, I am jobless my online store still can sus

Very busy today. As usual meeting and meeting, with clients, vendors and also staff. Sick of it ! What to do? When he said to others I am represent him when he is away. Basically , I am his eyes and his ears when he is away. For example just now stucked in the meeting , well talking about Finance is not a problems. Negotiating term is just a piece of cake for me . Then they talked about technical, I am trying hard to understand and absorb whatever information register to my brain and start processing the data. Well since my pentium is not upgraded and dont even have anti virus or security so more or less a bit corrupted. kekekeke.. When I updated him in Singapore on Finance side for the meeting, he then asked me about the circuits and codes. Hahahahaha again you are testing the wrong woman... kekekeke Based on my notes, I just read it out via the phone as if I am a pro and talking about it until he is speechless on the other end. kekekeke Thank God! its not the face to face updated, if

I am too exhausted this week after too many attacks from my enemies. The attacked came from all over the place until my mind feel numb. As usual I remain silence and keeping myself mum. This company , I can say in very critical situation unless : 1. Terminate that agressive fella 2. Terminate that politician fella 3. The owner to step out from the cocoon. Today I made very drastic decision and also against my norm principal. I insist on beauty with brain or the ugly with brain but yet here I am breaking my own rules and just hired a girl just because she is pretty. Why? This is my strategy against my 2 enemies. Since the owner refuse and strongly disagree to sign on my termination letter, I need to use this tactic in order to survive. In battle sometimes we need to distract our enemies and here I am using this tactic to distract them in order for me to survive until end of my contract. Hope this will work until I strategize again for my next plan....

My name is Elanora Elmm. I was snatched away from the King of Perfectto Lettue (King Perf) to King of Hyginotic Broad Bean (King Bean) beacause of my expertise in multi tasking and make thing work in the castle. I was known as a good assistant to the King. I was brought into this new castle called 'Castle of Finggie Sanita'. My presense in the castle is not welcome by King Bean's 2 Generals. One is General Fukkio Stupido (Gen Lion) and the other one is General Assie Foolo (Gen Assie). Both Generals are fighting for power. Between these two Generals, Gen Fukkio is the most aggressive. To cut the story short, since I came to the castle, Gen Fukkio never stop attacking me and also the King Bean. King Bean as usual remain silence and never show off his power as King. This leave me Elanora fight her own battle to ensure the castle run smoothly and try my best to protect the maids in the Castle. One day, I was attacked by Gen Fukkio due to Gen Assie bad words on me. King Bean was

Here goes my defination on Malaysian Drivers attitude based on my every day on the road observation.. The Oportuinist They will in and out of the line just to get to their destination. As long as we leave some gap to our queue... here they are... trying force in with their poker face with full of selfishness. Very irritating isn't it?? The Fickle minded They will be at the left and then at the right and then at the left and at the right and on and on and on... they just cannot make up their mind!!!!! so headache! The emotional Beware of this person. We don't know what they are thinking. We don't know whether they just got fired or bf or gf dumped them or their wife just ran away with other man or hubby screwed her bestfriend. You never know....So if you overtake them just because they are too slow or you just wanna to overtake them... they will overtake you back and break right away and make you horn them. Well honking them will not solve the problem. They will get more emo

I was up working since 5am for 2 days in a row. At least 4-5 hours stuck in front of computer before heading to morning shower. My shoulder and neck end up stiff like wood. Tired and exhausted but what counts is my efforts to work and move forward for the sake of getting out of employment under other Bosses. I want to be my own boss. Trying hard to get out from corporate employment world and move towards self employment. My acer laptop was damn slow for pass 2 months. I end up purchase a desktop last month just to make thing speed up. But getting use to get some programme compatible to window 7 are really tiring. I am trying hard to be patient and control my anger. I end up with frustration for the last 2 days. I can't install my flash player and my attempt to edit and develop my new online store really distrupted. I have my own deadline to catch. Festive season and end of year business is coming and I need to catch up before mid Sept. If not all my plan go down to drain....:( I ju

I am facing the traffic and on the road for at least 3 hours everyday. What fascinate me is the way our drivers manage their way on the road (including me of course) Based on my observation the way we drive is who we are in managing our life or even at work. There are many type of drivers out there. Here are the list : 1st - The opportunist 2nd - The fickle minded 3rd - The emotional 4th - The Hot temper 5th - The Road King 6th - The Dreamland 7th - The Honey sweet 8th - The Chillis 9th - The Dark Witch 10th - The Ice Queen 11th - The Crazy Punk 12th - The Breaker 13th - The Chatter Box 14th - The Elephant 15th - The Ostrich 16th - The Celebrity many more to list down... I will explain one by one in my next entry. Tired to type everything tonight... I have all in one package with me right now. Fever, Cough, Flue and headache.

Here goes the story... Open my email on Monday morning... my worst enemy shot an email on Friday night. Working late huh???? Yeah! since you are the only one working in this company the rest all 'shaking legs and booties'!!! Wakakaka... Anyway, talking about that nasty 200 words email as replied to just one email asking politely, 'do you mind forward me our existing HSE policy?' Not worth it for me to feel upset on Monday morning, especially when my temperature is already damn high (fever). Anyway, the best about him is... jeng jeng he cc the email to even my Boss! GOOD!!!!! very very good!!! you kill yourselllllffffff!!!! I don't need to do anything at all. His words tell the story... wakakaka...wanna roll off the chairs instead of mourning and feel upset about it! I win! I win!!! I feel tired like mad when my fever getting bad complete package with flue and cough. Ah! I can't drink and even eat medicine. Today I just hired one girl as admin&hr assistant. I

Last week its not good week for me. Many dramas going on. Why? Person who feel threaten to my exisiting in the company is back. Of course lot of games going on... Don't know how to use my Tai chi ledi... I just try my best to keep calm and maintain positive. My confirmation is due tomorrow. I wrote to my Boss and ask him to release me. Yes! I am not at the right mind at all. He replied back with saying he is more than happy to confirm me. He asked me to wait for him to come back to KL. uwaaaaaaaaaa... i am crying in my heart. (Yeah! call me weird ... I refuse to be confirmed please fire me!!!!) I must be doing a good job for him until he still wants me after few nasty emails I had sent to him in separate occassion... as usual I am emo and outspoken. I write emails like I am speaking my mind out! Can't wait for Sep... another 2 -3 weeks... Fasting month never been easy for me. I am sick today with bad throat and toothache. Ah!!! so hurt... not to forget my endless neck and shoul

Today is the most weird interview day. I allocated 2 candidates to come in the morning for the post of Admin & HR Assistant. 1st Candidate She came in as a descent 23years old girl. When she start talking will be with hand gestures as if she is in debate class or something. I asked her one question that I regretted until now. (I shouldn't asked her this question) Me : How should I called you? Candidate : Tamus! (with proud and confident face) Me : Tamus? very unusual name? Where do you get this name? Bible? (I have not read this anywhere in bible) Candidate : No... I am like hippopotamus.So I put my name Tamus! Hippopotamus have big mouth same like me. See see I can put in the whole hand inside my mouth.... (She really put in her whole hand inside her mouth) OMG!!!!!! This is seriously weirdo... I can't even blink my eyes for 3 secs and seriously at that moment I am speechless. 2nd Candidate 29 years old and very talkative. She talk too much and reveal info she is not su

My BOF fever is over! Go Jun Pyo love ended... I found a new love.. Here goes Jin Ho love on the way.... Lee Min Ho acting as Jin Ho in Personal Taste is killer! Killing my heart though... How I wish I am Park Gae In in that drama... How I wish I have gay pretty friend by my side and then he turn into a gentleman... wow!!! Call me freak call me lunatic but being in love to a character in the movie is my hobbies. hhahahahahahaha ( with my crazy laugh ) Got carried away a lil bit... back to reality.. Recruitment day just now is a flop! Many never turn up! I have 2 candidates turn up. One too shy to even talk and the other said got no ambition at all and also hate to take people instruction. mmmmmm.... don't know what to say... Guess!!!! all these people don't need a job. mmmm ... I will change to my plan B then. Talk to my Boss in Yangon, he sounded sick! Ah! continue sick and don't come back please!!! yeah! me with my evil mind again... My worst enemy whom just came back f

Last Friday was not so happening. Problem after problem at my work place. I feel tired to crack my head and try to maintain calm and try my best to solve it one by one. While I was driving home, my headhunter who introduce me to this new workplace, called me. mmmmm... well she were asking me about how am I doing in this company. My feedback was easy, don't do business with this company again if you want to maintain good rapport and not to spoil talented people future. Basically in harsh statement I would said " This is craps and hopeless company".She asked me to stay at least 6 months. I will not comment on that and this is my future you are talking about dear. Don't make me scream at you. So stop it!!! i am trying to be nice here.... I was rolling on my bed at 8.15am , and received a call asking me to bring her for baby clothes shopping. So Saturday end up, spend time at Jusco selecting baby clothes. Really get crazy to see all these cute baby clothes. Since she is e

I came from very tough and demanding environment... Expectation on work quality is high. I try my best to lower down my expectation on my people to suit their capacity.. I can't lower myself to low! Thats nonsense... we are doing business not running a charity organisation. But wait a minute... even charity organisation emphasis in good and quality service. Well... today I received one resignation. There are talks about me flying around this organisation and it fly to my ears. I am too hard on these people, maybe. Whatever! I can never please people. and I will never do that because I don't care what people say about me. My ultimate objective to give good service to people who employed me. But if you decided to hang around shaving your beard and shine your nails in this office, well you are dealing with the wrong leader here. I am one result orientated person. I will guide and teach you but I can't concern too much on how you do it. If I need concern on these small things,

I can't upload my photos for few weeks to my blog. I feel very upset because of this. Everytime I tried to upload, it will hang halfway through. Arggghhhh!!! so sick! I have my photo having breakfast with my friends @ Oldtown, JayaOne, eating Ramen at Korean Restaurant, Floria 2010 @ Putrajaya, Papa Rich Dimsum breakfast and also my July 2010 Size S,M&L gathering at Pavillion. So not happy because I can't store all this moment to my online diary. How if I die before even have time to upload this special moment in mylife??? Oh No!!!!! Yeah! me with my drama again.... What happen to me after keeping mum for few weeks? How is my work??? Hate it to even think about it? As mentioned earlier, as for work I am just let my destiny brings me to the next stop. I will not strive anymore. I am just going to let thing happen. Why? Maybe I feel tired! I did not stop striving for the past 20 years! I guess I feel down for a while. Last Saturday end up having my breakfast,lunch at Golden

Questions and statements that I hate the most for these 2 months. 1. How are you doing? 2. So.. you new job better than previous? 3. No more working late hours ha? 4. Look like your earning is better than previous. 5. No more lecture and nagging? 6. Easy job ha this time? 7. You are doing high level job since you earn your Master? and many more to list. In real fact, I am currently lost my direction in life. I am now like the brown leaf drop into the river and let the current to drag me to places which I don't even know where is my next stop. All these years, since I was 16 years old, I am trying hard to change my luck and my fate. I see drastic changes in my life. But I still find living my life is the most difficult thing to do right now! I would not talk about death, because that means no turning back point. So hopefully I am still strong enough and face the challenge in being a sole survivor. The only motivation left for me is ' My life is difficult but many others is facin

Situation 1 Me : Why do you think you deserve this much of salary? Candidate : Oh! my husband said I am good! (Aisshhh!!!! why suddenly your husband come into the picture? I am confuse!!!! helpppp!!!!) Situation 2 Me : Why do you ask for very high salary? Candidate : I have many commitment...my credit card bills , my baby sitter bills, my car loan , my house rent and bla bla bla... (Go on go on... I am listening.. I am charging 20% per annum daily compunded. Please fill in this form) Situation 3 Me : Please list down 3 strengths... Candidate : 1. Talk strong 2.Work strong 3. Listen strong I am almost burst out my laughter Me : How about your weakness? Name me one... Candidate : Headache (Aishhhhhh... like that also can... I almost go crazy.... ) Situation 4 Me : What is your hobbies? Candidate : Listen to music. Me : what kind of music? Candidate : Lady Gaga!!!! you know that Poker face singer??? (Aish!!!! poke your eyes then you know.... ) Situation 5 Me : One of your hobbies says you

Today is my unplanned Graduation Day!!! I never thought of going since I had received my parchment and spending money to be up on stage with that nervous feeling will kill me. Anyway, my friend keep telling me , I will not have this chance anymore unless I continue with Doctorate. Ah! make sense after Master will be Doctorate. Doctorate??? OMG!!!! I don't want this now. I want to earn money, save money and retire in style. Earn flat money? Yes! Save money ? Not yet! Retire in style???? Ohhhhhh!!!! looking at my situation now may be I can't even think about retiring.... uwwwaaaaa... Here goes ,my will be last convocation??? Maybe.... I am planning to migrate soon! soooooooo.... I need to work extra tripple hard from now on... Oh! by the way... my leave was not approved... so I am actually skip work for my convo... whatever... I don't give a damn... No flower , no bear for my convo? ah... nope.. Any supporter for my convo?? ah nope.. But I got myself unskilled photographer th

When you are just a human... you have your limitation in many things. Last Friday is the down time for me and up to today I am still feeling down...hopeless..helpless... worried... sad...uncertainty... Nobody to turn to. Suck in everything to myself and my body feel numb, my chest feel suffocated and my head feel heavy. What should I do? How long more you want to put me on your test? Is this what my life suppose to be? When ppl said every ppl fate is written up there and decided... is it really true??? Then, why should we bother to work anymore? I should just leave it to you and wait for the outcome? Is that what I should do? I know I am lucky in a way for having a good life but I feel difficult to maintain everything. I am worried about my future... I dont know what to do now... feeling lost in direction.

Yesterday evening while walking towards my gym at Menara Maxis, a Malay couple with their lil toddler was walking in front of me.What attract my attention to this couple is their lil toddler was walking bare foot. mmmmm.... her parent was very selfish to my thought. Both of them know how to protect their feet but they are very ignorance about the lil one. Then the wife turn to her back and asked her husband. "Dear! have you seen our other child?" OMG!!!! (Usher new song style) like that also can ar???? Malaysia sangat sangat boleh!!!!! The best thing is the husband replied. " Let him be le!!!!!" Arrrrrr???? My jaw drop to hear the reply. Then this couple and bare foot lil toddler walk ahead without even stop by and curious about their other kid whereabouts. I am very amaze with such thinking from a 'so called parent'. This morning while having my morning Yong Tau Foo AGAIN... I read this news about a woman won RM1.4million suit again Gombak Police. The suit

" Ridiculous thing can bring you millions!!!!" I am more convince after I read this morning The Sun newspaper as I was having my morning breakfast Yong Tau Foo. I read this articles on Billing Woes by Nury Vittachi about this woman from Canada is suing this phone company for breaking up her marriage.The telco firm sent an itemized phone bill and her husband spotted unusual phone number then when he give a call to that number and turned out to be her secret lover. Her husband pack his bag and left. The woman is suing for C$600,000 (RM1.8 million). Suing a phone company for an itemized billing and imagine if she win.... WOW!!!! Then I read this article on a French internet billionaire who made his 1st million from offering sex chat service and then later shook up French with cheap connection packages from his provider free. There are many classic case to give us inspiration. We just need to think ridiculous, act ridiculous , be ridiculous and maybe talk ridiculous???? Most of o

I feel speechless to myself on these two weekends. I feel time is not enough for myself. I feel I spend too much time on something else and not to myself. But.... what should I do if I spend time for myself apart from watching my mushy mashy korean drama then laugh or cry alone???? I need to find some useful hobbies rather than spend most of my time at shopping malls. Seriously last Friday back home very late night.... Suddenly other people problems become my problems... and expect me to do magic again. Well.... I should think about becoming a full time magician then.... Anyway, I don't give a damn about all this nonsense... I just want to focus on my July thingy. Hope everything work out well! My recruitment for receptionist position is a let down. Those attitude problem people... arghhhh!!!! giving me headache! Now I understand.... where we are now.... is all because of our attitude problems. They don't finish their studies. They can't speak well but yet they demand high

Its still not finalise.... aish!!!! Last candidate I met is on Wednesday. Last question from my last candidate is...... Candidate A : " Miss! are you married???" In my heart, ishhhhh.... is this relevant??? Hell !!! nooooo!!!! I still need control my professionalism.... cool down Rina.. cool down.. Me : " Dear!!!! what I mean , do you have any question... question relevant to company??? question on postion you applying??? " Still with my smiling face although I feel like slapping her face. Candidate A : "ehehehe... sorry ar!!!! but are you married??? eeeerrr sorryy ar!!!! " In my heart, Big OMG!!!!! do you have brother to introduce is it???? Still with smiling face and control my professionalism....maintain maintain... I keep telling myself. Me: "I believe you don't have any relevant question anymore. Lets end our interview today. I will give you a call once you finalise everything in another week or two. Thank you for coming!!!" I took her a

I have been meeting candidates almost every single day. I am getting sick of it! I have been calling people for interview and I feel like throwing up! I have been browsing through resumes after resumes and I get migraine by just a glance of it! By now, I can feel how the recruiters feel.... When Rina is the recruiter...... 1. ..... and when she got through the resumes .... * She reject any resume without photograph * She hate SO MUCH when candidate send photo with camwhore style or cute face or model style * Job hopping or Grasshopper - REJECT * Asking too much salary at least 50% more than current but yet stay just one yr at current one - REJECT Then when she call candidates for interview ... * they never pick up call after 5 rings - she label them as not responsible * They answer call with "arrrrrr" or "aha" or " mmmmm" or "what " or "ha" - she feel they are lucky for not being in front or her or she need to commit a crime by slapping

Yeah! weather not so good for me. I was conducting recruitment and at the same time sick like an old lady. Imagine I am having difficulties with itchy throat while talking to potential candidates.... ah!!!! I feel like getting a fork and scratch my throat. Friday night a bit lonely... didnt go to gym at all.. but end up wondering at KLCC having my dinner alone. Then I came across a sinful kiosk! Bijou cupcakes!!!!! OMG!!!! very pretty and look yummy... here we go... I never taste pretty cupcake before so despite being sick and when I realise I have two cupcakes in my hand. Saturday night another unpleasant night for me. I cna't sleep due to my bad cough and my astma make a come back!! OMG!!!! Tomorrow is Monday, another recruitment day.... I can't afford to go for MC... hope I heal fast.. Sunday is the worst when I came back home around 2pm and the electricity were out until almost 8.30pm. A friend of mind came toask me out for dinner then only I realise, my house is the only o

How do I start my entry for this week??? I have been doing recruitment for the whole week. Monday to Friday , I can say I have been seeing at least more than 25 candidates. Many types and many interesting character. I have at least 6 candidates asked me the same question at the end of interview. " What are you?" mmmmm.... how should I answer this people??? What am I? Who am I? I am a human, idiot!!!! or should I start saying , Hidup Malaysia!!!! Satu Malaysia!!!! What the heck girls??? Although you curious on what race am I , you shouldn't be asking this irrelevant questions!!!! 1st and 2nd candidate asked me , I still give them a descent answer but when come to the 3rd, I got fed up and my temper rose up high and high and high.... so my answer is, I am philipines. ahhhh1!!! ambik kau... geram betul!!!! I saw their funny and puzzle face after listen to my answer.... tu la kay poh sangat... and obviously they are not listed in 2nd interview......too bad... wrong question g

I am officially sick. Sore throat, flue and cough.... complete package. I believe I got it since Friday night! I am suppose to finalise my own accounts but end worst sick on Sunday. Ah! hope I still have my voice for recruitment week starting tomorrow. I am seeing at least 5 candidates in a day until Friday. I don't know how I am going to do this but I have to. I need ore people to work for me or I am doom. How is my mood swing??? My PMS dried up early, well maybe will end up menapouse early then. I am still in upset mood although I am pretending to look ok but in my heart is not ok. Saturday morning as I mentioned, I wanted to be a cocoon. Yeah! did it for almost 2 hours then be a spring rolls rolling from south to west on my bed. I feel great!!! But still I feel like don't want to do anything at all.... Then my phone rang!!!! Ah!!!! a friend asked me to go out!!! Prince of Persia??? Maybe he know I have been in bad mood for almost a week. Trying to cheer me up by asking me ou

Everywhere I go is always a recruitment day!!!!! Today started my 1st recruitment day. We are looking for candidates to fill in 3 positions in our company: 1. PA to SVP 2. Admin Executive 3. Receptionist cum Admin Assistant Response from the applicants is great but the quality is sucks!!! These candidates just whack and click apply although they are not qualified or over qualified. I had 3 candidates came in today. My receptionist candidate came in with jeans and light brown contact lense. Another receptionist came in with after smoking smells and very transparent baju kurung revealing her black push up bra. My last candidate for the day is for PA position. Unfortunately, when she start talking her eyes keep looking up and left and right ? Am I too ugly to look at? I was wondering until now. Next week Mon - Fri is back to back recruitment. Jia you!!! Well the politician still with his own politics trying to find alliance here and there but I just entertain him. For the dog keep bark

I was at gym almost every evening. However, I feel myself not loosing the kilos. I feel bigger. OMG!!! I don't want my bisep look like popeye's. I don't want my hip bigger like old hindi movie star. I control my eating by eating frequent but lesser quantity. I avoid rice! No wonder my 1st time at gym I see big people than smaller people. More people with flabbies than without it. I sees more more big fat ugly naked bodies than the skinny nice looking bodies in the changing room. These wooommaaaann too open minded with another woooommmaaannn. They can just walk naked and talk to other. My eyeballs almost drop when 1st time saw this scene. Like watching no star porn movie try out! Yet!!! me Asian being asian. Shy and timid just go change in the toilet and came out with everything already hide in my bag and ready to go. I never try to take shower at gym. I dare not go into the sauna when I saw few naked bodies inside. Ah!!! how to go Japan like this??? How am I to go Korea???

I blame it to my post PMS Syndrome. Since yesterday, I am not so motivated to even drive to work in the morning. I am so down. I feel very weak and my positive spirit run away from me. I think my PMS will visit me soon. Faster come so I feel relieve! I feel the same way this morning. So tired and so demotivated. Did my positive angel left me alone??? Di manakah dia pergi??? Kenapa tinggalkan saya seorang diri??? Saya sangat sedih sekarang!!! Seriously, feel like to cry now. My emotion totally sucks now!!! I just can't wait for Saturday morning and I just want to be a cocoon on the bed and lie down without moving for 2 hours. I tried to lie down in my car this morning but doesn't work , in fact my level of positiveness at negative level now and my anger level rise up!!!! I know my psychotic disorder come back. I need to control myself harder. Ah! I thought my constant EPO intake will help to control my hormones. I need to find alternative.